Oh Vickers Grace above said it so very well. YOU STAYED!! You did it! Not many people could do what you did today but YOU did, even through all that hellish panic you did NOT give up and run, the one thing thing that stood in my mind from your post was how brave and strong you are, after that day no other day will be as bad or severe, you went through the very worst and survived! I am so very proud, I hope one day I can obtain that sucess, and that is what is was sucess. The lack of sleep probably made you feel like this, I am going to pray you sleep like a baby tonight, and remember the worst is over, you did it. Please get some rest and the world will look better. Congratulations, if you want to have a cry, it will release the tension, but after you wipe those tears, remember, you stayed, you saw, you conquered and you did it. Grace is right you are amazing. Sending prayers, Debbie.