I almost gave in to a crave today. I have been having a hard time dealing with my emotions lately. Anger, sadness, etc. etc. and went and bought a pk of smokes this morning. I tore off the wrapper but never opened the pk. It was one of the hardest things I have every done. Sitting down and talking about how I feel is so hard. I find it is so hard dealing with people and relationships without the nicotine to numb all the feelings so you don't have to feel all the emotions..... My partner really doesn't like it when I get angry and express the way I feel. I am not sure if I can be in a relationship without nicotine if I have to be happy all the time and never get angry. Dealing with my emotions and feeling them is why I lost my last 35 day quit. I am having a hard time feeling and dealing with my anger.
Rose
My Mileage:
My Quit Date: 5/30/2010 Smoke-Free Days: 36 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,440 Amount Saved: $468.00 Life Gained: Days: 5 Hrs: 2 Mins: 11 Seconds: 28
