I had my therapist appt today and right after she left I had the biggest panic attack, she seems to think all my problems phobias fears and panic stem from my Father, he did spank alot harsh punishment, very cold and callous, but I thought that was just the times in the seventies and eighties, I thought therapy was supposed to help? The medicine from my nurse is not working either, my husband worked 16 hours straight and has to work another 16 hours straight, my little one is having trouble at school! It never ends, I am bleeding so bad and I am alone all night, its so scary, my sister said I was "not even living" which was very depressing to hear, its hard to live when you are emotionally and physically sick day after day, if the meds fail and the therapy does where do you go? I have been praying so hard for help and healing, Meds and therapy I know are not a cure all but never did I imagine it would make my anxiety panic and depression worse, my only hope is God and prayer, I hope you all will pray for me, I feel so discouraged, I despise living like this, afraid all the time. I started the panic program/Diary a few days ago I hope it helps and brings relief, I feel like I have exhausted all my options and there is nothing left to do, and I most certainly do NOT want to put my husband and child through any misery I love them too much for that, it seems all my life has become is illness and panic. I am so scared always being alone with a little one. Thank you for your prayers and help. Debbie.
