Hi Everyone!
I'm new and I have a panic disorder as well, but unfortunately I didn't realize till today. At least that's what I think I have. I have been doing a lot of research and all the symptoms has been pointing me to this. I have had chills in the bed, breathing difficulty with chest pain but mostly between my breast, chocking feeling in throat, painful muscles around the chest, left arm, neck and shoulder pain and numbness, dizziness, fainting filling, dry mouth, sore eyes. I think I need help, but I don't want to take any medicine since it's all in the mind. If I was able to create this, somehow I should able to get out of it.
Before 9/11 happened I had such a wonderful life without any major worrying. Ever since then I watched so many news, I felt like I am going to get depressed from all the negativity I was getting from the TV, but I couldn't stop watching it, I was so worried World War 3 going to break out. I had a little boy in 2001 October and having a baby in the house ain't make things easy for anyone, no matter how much you love them ^____^
Early 2004 I fell into a depression, nothing suicidal, but enough to make you said and cry a lot. I didn't take any medicine, I was hoping I will get through it. Just when I was feeling better a bit in August 2004 I lost 2 person in a month. My father and a friend of mine who I cared for very much. After my father's death I had a lot of quilt. My father was living in Europe and I was hoping he will able to meet his grandson in 2005 before he passes away, but I was wrong. It left so much guilt in me, I wish I had the chance go home last year, but things are not that simple. I was battling with so many things inside of me that time, I noticed my menstruation went out of balance. Sometimes I had 44 days between periods and it scared me that I might be pregnant but I wasn't. Then December of 2004 I was feeling so much better, but my period was still not back to normal. After Christmas when the Tsunami happened, I think my mind couldn't take it and that was the first time I believe I had Panic Attack. I thought I might be pregnant, but no I wasn't. Since December I haven't been very healthy, in the past 30-40 days I have been experiencing a lot of breathing problem and chest pain. I started worrying tha