You know you can do this because you did it when your marriage ended. It is always hard to let go of someone but if he is treating you this way, then is he really someone you want to hang on to? You deserve better - you have to believe that! Don't ever settle for less than you deserve because you are a human being not a doormat!! Be strong and believe in yourself! It is better to be alone, then in an unhealthy relationship. Because at least when you're out of that relationship, you can start to heal. Healing takes time so be patient and give yourself the time you need to heal. Don't be afraid - I know you can do this! -Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.

your a tough gal,hag in there,i wish i knew what to say youve helped me before..i dont know your situation hang in there and pray.. outlaw

That was beautiful Crystal-hugs.

I have so many thoughts racing in my head, I am so tired, and I am so confused and hurting. I dont know which is worse, the heartbreak or the panic. I feel so trapped and desperate. Alone and afraid, so very very alone. I got another email from him, I dont know what to think anymore. I need rest and sleep. He has promised to call me tomorrow night (Friday). I feel like I am in an endless hell. I wake up calling his name, I have literally begged him to come back to me, I forfited all pride. I am so **** desperate and afraid. Confused and hurting. Why does everything have to be so complicated? Why does life have to kick me in the shins when I am already down and hurting? All i am guilty of is loving too much. Thinking too much. I feel condemned. After my marriage broke up it was 10 years before I even thought about being with a man, ten years I buried the pain deep deep inside. Then I met him and I risked love again. Now 8 years later I am abandoned again, the only reason I am given is one that is so thin I cant accept it. I dont want to spend another 10 years in solitude. I have so much love for him it is killing me to live like this, wanting him back and he has made no effort on his part to reach out to me. I have called, send messengers, emails anything I could to reach out and tell him of my love and that I was here waiting. No pride here, no sir. Now I feel empty and depleted, still no answer to my cry. Only more doubts and fears and worries. I keep imagining the worse, the most awful betrayal beyond what I have already endured. It stabs the heart. I know this is journal material but I have gotten so much solace and comfort from all of you, and I really really need a hug bad and someone to tell me I will be okay. I am so pitiful. How can someone say they love you and then stab your heart and leave you on edge hour by hour, day after day, month by month. Is there an end to it? I know I need to let go and face it is over, but I cant bring myself to accept that, not yet. Because it means I failed at the relationship and I cant bare that thought. I get no allowance for my emotional state, the anxiety and panic that he said he understood but doesnt. Please help me understand the pain