Hi Grace,
Yes i get fustrated with living with the anxiety and panic all the time, every hour of every day, but when you start to get to the point where you are now, that you are so angry at it or tired of it you start to ignore it, then you are very close to getting better.
Thats the way to deal with this best, just let it come. We create the anxiety and panic by fearing our own thoughts and feelings.We have to retrain ourselves to know that there is nothing to fear, thats a step towards recovery.