I have had a very bad day, I have been shaking with panic and crying all day. I chickened out taking the pregnancy test, I am so scared if I am because of my age, smoking, medication, my husbands exposure to asbestos and radation! I have been told my chances of giving birth to a downs-syndrome or handicapped child are very very high. My husband says if I am I should terminate, which I do not want to do, either way it will be very bad. My Doctor seems to think I am NOT pregnant, just perimenopause, I am over a week late, I started to have horrific menstual cramps earlier that doubled me over but I have not started yet, but keep cramping. I just cannot seem to calm down, I have put off the pregnancy test because I know if its positive I will crumble and have a breakdown, my choices would be to give birth to a handicapped retarted child or have a termination and feel guilty and remorseful. I am so very scared, I know I will breakdown if I am pregnant. I pray God its just a delayed period due to hormonal changes. Please pray for me to get better so I can care for my special-needs son he is young and needs me to be strong. Thank-you, Debbie.
