I have to learn to start doing things on my own and going places on my own, so I don't have to rely on my boyfriend but its so hard because I'm used to him being there with me and going everywhere with me. I even tryed to go to the local shop which is not far from my home and I can't make it there on my own. My doctor says I made the worst mistake on having to rely on him and now it's just become a habit and now I have to learn to undo that habit, and do things on my own, but I'm to scared to. I know as soon as I go somewhere without him or even stay on my own I will have an anxiety attack, and I hate having an anxiety attack so I avoid anything that will cause me to have one, And I know thats the worsed mistake I can make. But I am going to keep on trying even if it's a little bit at a time. ;)

Thanks gina........... :)

hey ruby, it sucks wat we have to go threw with our men. my shrink said men want to fix everything and when they cant fix it they get mad.my huband is not understanding at all.i hate being alone too.on my husbands poker night i spend the night at my moms house. and i just started to get scared to drive at night. go figure!we have to fight this! gina

Hi Everyone, Well I have been feeling a little bit better, the only thing is I don't feel like going anywhere, I just want to stay home. I promised my son I'd take him to his mates place yesterday afternoon so I had no choice but to take him, otherwise my son would of got upset with me If I didn't take him because I promised him, I tell you what as we were driving to his mates place I was close to turning around and going home, but I ended up pushing myself to get to his mates place, it's just the last couple of weeks I don't feel like going anywhere, I'd rather stay at home, I don't even feel like going to the local shop which is not far from my home. I think it's just a stage I'm going through(anxiety) does anyone else get like this? Well also I'am finding it hard to sleep at night, I'm not going to bed till late, and finally when I go to sleep I'am waking up in a sweat, then at lunch time that day I end up having a couple of hours of sleep with no problems, it's strange, I can't sleep at night but during the day I have no problems with going to sleep. My boyfriend has to come with me everywhere I go, and stay with me all the time, but he is starting to get more frustrated with me because of this, I asked my doctor the other day I said to her do you think one day I will be able to stay on my own and go places on my own, I just want to go back to being able to do things like I used to. She told me that I will. So I can only cross my fingers and pray that one day I will. My relationship with my boyfriend is falling apart because of this, but I'm starting to get to the point were I don't care, if he walks out, because all he can do is say your F***** in the head and I'm sick of hearing it. I know it isn't because of what he says, because there is such a condition called anxiety and I know I'm suffering with it. I think he is getting more angry with me because he can't go out anywhere without me, and even when his mates ask him to go out he says no because he can't he has to stay with me. It has been about three and a bit years now he has had to stay with me and go everywhere with me, but I know if the shoe was on the other foot I would stick by him and surport him, I know it would be a bit frustrating but I wouldn't say cruel words. Sorry if I'm rambling on