I was wondering if anyone else had witnessed a loved one or family member die or suffer from a illness? I think alot of my anxiety is from watching my grandmother have a stroke in front of me and then 2 days later died. And most of my life I watched my grandfather suffer with parkinson disease. I helped take care of him when I got older and then when I was 16 he passed away. It seems like after that I started to have anxiety attacks. but I only had them once every couple of years. Now the last few years my life has been really stressful in every area. In October I started to have really bad panic attacks and it had happened almost every night since then. I really thought somthing was wrong with me because of the weird symptoms i have been experiencing. I really think that I recently suffered a nervous breakdown due to stress. Do you think that could be possible? I feel shakey, tingley even when I breathe in I can feel it in my lungs. I have chronic muscle tension that just seems to be uncontroled, muscle spasms, and my head and nose feels like someone is squeezing it. Like there is alot of pressure in my head. sometimes I feel like I am buzzing all over. I really hate the way that I feel. I started therepy and they keep wanting to put me on drugs but I refuse because I know there are many reasons why I feel the way I do. Its called co-dependant. I never look out for me and my feelings I tend to take care of everyone else first. I dont even know what my favorite hobby is. That is sad! I have been in abusive and alcoholic relationships since I was a teenager and I think it has finally taken its toll on me. Its time to take care of me instead of always worrying about everyone else. I hope that therepy will help in time. Does this sound like anyone else??? I just have put up with too much.
