Hey Gina its just me again the friends is a great issue.It's like preanxiety friends and after anxiety friends,like ive lived 2 lives.Well the first 3 years,i drank,and kicked it with my friends,they didnt know i had it.I got the thug imgage since i was a kid,and ive always been tough never scared.Until the first one hit my life has been terrible ever since that day.I never new that day would break frienships,and make my family question me.my daughters godfather i hardley talk to him cuz i dont want him to see me like this so i have my old lady get the phone,my other friends i just dont talk to them cats..they all think i turn my back on them,most of them,grew up,like me to be working good guys,but i must shelter myself from them..i enjoy this site alot,but i cannot wait im hanging with the guys not giving a you know,just chillin i cry for them days..as far as making new friends i dont have social anxiety so i will talk to people,i more like ok im dying so im wasting my life type of person..i miss the old me,i hope my better half gets to meet the real me,im pretty fun..this disorder is the hardest thing ive ever tryed to deal with..i belive i will have it forever,part of has hope,i will one day regain myself..sorry to talk so much,it struck me in a weird way..i hope the people here help later...
