This is an entry in my journal.Maybe it will help someone else.
I really stayed in bed 12 hrs. last night. I was awake about 4 of them. I used to wonder why I would think about something that would pop into my head. Now I think it is all consuming thoughts being driven by the NICO demon. ALL the negative thoughts that keep saying a cigarette would make things feel better.
Down in a rut. Trying to gain the strength to push it away. Try to redirect my thoughts. Think only of the good in my life. Do not let the voices of an addiction control what you do. No matter what, a cigarette smoked will only compound the problem. WHEN YOUR SMOKEING YOUR THINKIN ABOUT QUITTING. WHEN YOUR QUITTING YOUR THINKING ABOUT SMOKIN. That was posted to me today and it is very true in my case. The guilt of smoking is no better than the crave to smoke. With a long enough quit the crave will go away, and so will the guilt.
It�s my 16th day. I am looking for tomorrow to be better. A good attitude is the only attitude I should allow in my life. Pick up the pace. Enjoy the day. Look around at all I have been blessed with. Look at all the progress that has been made in the last year. Think of the jobs, the vehicles, The house, the yard, Not so long ago all of those things looked impossible. I can�t even begin to see all the good in store for me in the coming smoke free year.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/4/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 300
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,000
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,200.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 40 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 34 [B]Seconds:[/B] 49