hi everyone,
i just joined today and i after reading a lot of the posted messages i realize that i have had just about every symptom described...
i really believe that i have had anxiety since i was born...i've always been high strung and have suffered
from anxiety in all different forms both general anxiety and panic attacks that are so severe
that i'm pretty sure something catastrophic is going to happen...i'm going to die or close up and stop breathing...
i have many night where i feel an attack coming on...i tried the deep breathing to stop it in it's tracks...doesnt work!!
then when i feel it escalating i will take my medication (alprazolam specifically) and when its just not kicking in fast enough i will actually feel the need to grab my keys and run out to the car to take a drive (anything to distract me from what i feel will be completely terrifying)...
i've tried everything...therapy, relaxation techniques, medication (which isnt as effective anymore)...the only thing that works to get me out of this feeling of severe panic is to (hope i dont get kicked out for this, but it works!!) is to take a quick shot of hard alcohol (my preference is whiskey)... within seconds it will completely relieve me of all symptoms of anxiety and i am back to doing what i was doing before the panic hit me...
i have had panic attacks all of my life and when i was younger i could get out of them using my mind, but after having a lot of stress added to my life i no longer can control them...they go away for awhile and then depending on whats going on in my life they will come back full force and when they come back they are so much worse then before...my panic has become so bad that i cant drive down roads where there is nothing around for about 15 minutes...i am terrified of life and living and being somewhere without my medication and being stuck in bad traffic...i cant get on elevators, especially by myself...and i have had just about every symptom every time panic invades my life its something new...a new sensation that i have to eventually realize probably won't kill me...
it does help to have at least one person that is supportive and they dont necessarily have to understand panic, but at least realize how terrifying it is to me...i have to so much more to