bygrace:and the board here...
ive read your posts in a way you inspire me hear,and make panic center fun to visit..Ok on the note of what i think is wrong is panic disorder ive been on the same dose of xanax for 3 years on xanax,and anxiety a total number of 5 years.so in my eyes ive buitin up a tolerance just what i think..When i first got xanax it was as close as a cure could come,i would drink at night,and that would make them totally subside..So when i got gerd 3 years ago,i turned into this hypochondrtiac..like i said first it was cancers of the espho,and throat,and stomach,and head,and liver...it was always something,than last year after a major gerd relapse,my heart issues came back...went away when my gerd came back in April,than agian this fall the heart issues..i think my main symptoms are these:Bare with me anyone who can help?
I will feel a pain the chest,or heart racing,maybe a heart flip flop,and im thinking my heart,its bad the test are wrong.Therefor i will not overwork myself,lift heavystuff,take my bp alot,and just sit and worry.
Other times or conjoined i feel like i cant find a comfort zone,so i curl up in a ball,i just feel really tight,brain feels goofy,i feel like im letting everyone down.
enjoyment i wont listen to music i used to like because it brings back memories when i could function,cant travel,scared to work,dont like to be left alone,like a groggy feeling like im never really right in my mind,than i get feeling of my old self and it goes away quick..than im upset about that...i get in a funk,dont shave as much,take to many showers to chill out..i dunno there is more but sometimes im in a ball on my bed crying,and nothing feels right.to me this is 5 years of panic disorder and other drs said so to..than this dr says there are not classsic anxiety symptoms,and not panic disorder,maybe pyschosis..so now im worried im crazy..im getting another opp thursday,anyone tell me anything?help me with input,and most off all prayers than we can survive..