Hi Dennis,
it may be shocking to some folks who are just starting out on the road to freedom that even this far along we may have a bit of a scrum with the ND out of the blue.
Just a little while ago I was back to having smoking dreams and watching smokers with envy.
I still have a box of my nicorette gum in the kitchen drawer, it's been there for more than a year, I just can't bring myself to throw them out, even though I've been advised to.
A couple of weeks ago the fight was getting hard and I came close to taking a piece of that gum just to ease the tension
Well I still haven't taken that piece of gum because I've come once again to the conclusion that not only did I quit smoking but I also quit nicotine - regardless of what shape or package it comes in.
this far along, I reminded myself that I would feel as sick as a dog and that I would only want another piece and within a couple of weeks I'd want the 'real thing' and I'd be back to smoking, and I really, really, didn't want that.
also, I reminded myself of as many physiological consequences of nicotine that I could starting with the heart beating faster, blood vessels constricting, on and on and I really didn't want that either...I quit smoking to give my body a fighting chance, so why would i even consider, for a minute poisoning it all over again, especially now when it's only beginning to trust me lol
I decided that I needed another milestone to aim for, and so I set 18 months as my next biggie to aim for and I reached it today...the next one will be the 2 year mark.
So, the point of all this is to let you know that you are definitely not alone and that maybe setting a new goal may be helpful....also revisiting the reasons why you quit may be helpful.
Try to remember going to bed at the end of the day breathing like you'd just run around the block and promising yourself that in the morning you'll quit smoking.
Not hard to remember if you give it a bit of thought.
we are addicts. As such, our brain will ocassionally remember that a substance used to feel really good under certain circumstances and we'll have a bit of a flash back, where we'll want that drug again.
No worries. It passes. Nicotine is a highly addictive, highly unerestimated drug.
Smoking is not an option
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]9/9/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 547
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 21,880
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $10,940.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
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