So, after my rant...i went out to sing (at a bar) and sure enough i smoked. but, to make it worse last night i went to a friends house and .......big surprise.. smoked... Then, she handed me one in the car on the way to work and i said "no i need to keep the quit" and sat there while she smoked... so, i wasn't going to post because i've felt a lot of pressure to change my 'meter'...not from anyone directly. just seems to be the thing to do. "i'm here to learn, how not to smoke... i have NO non smoking friends and so i won't ask them to stop smoking in front of me. i cant stay away from bars because i really -want to be a rockstar. personally i think the FACT that i have not smoked 196 cigarettes it a major victory. And the four i did, taught me that the "sharing act" of smoking tobacco has a deeper spiritual connection with me, than i thought (i'm native canadian).no more using smokes to pick up guys.. and anyways! I'm into grass, i never truly have "smoke free days" . phew! thanks for stickin with me eh.. i wanted to go get a cigar... wednesday night my voice was clear and awesome today i can't get high note. coincidence i think not. no more cigars, no more using smokes to pick up guys..
relapse is like kissing and ex to see if he's still a worm
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]2/6/2008
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 16
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 192
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $65.28
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 9 [B]Seconds:[/B] 45