Hello everyone!
I haven't posted with any frequency since last march at least.
I'm doing much better, actually in-conparible to last year at this time.
I'm back at work, doing more hours with more responsibility and loving it! I've found a wonderful counsellor who has worked with me doing CBT and I'm slowing and steadily getting better.
I still have anxiety driving on the highway, in fact I rarely do drive the highway, BUT I am driving my car twenty-five minutes away from my house on the backroads, something I NEVER thought I could do.
I'm still on the 150mg dose of effexor xr and it really has been a wonder drug in combination with the CBT. However, I have gained lots of weight and am really really down with how I look. Ever since I started SSRI's in grade 9 (five years ago) I've gained a good 50lbs. I started on paxil then went to celexa, back to paxil and on to 75mg of effexor xr then up to 150mg of effexor xr. I lost most of the excess weight but within the last year, when i started effexor in dec-jan, I've gained it ALL back. Its HORRIBLE!
I want to stop taking meds and see how I do, however I'm terrified to do so. I think I've just been so dependent on the meds that I'm afraid of how I will react once I'm off them. I can't go back to the way I was feeling before and that thought really scares me, combined with the horrors of withdrawals that I've heard of. So, needless to say, I'm really scared.
I want to give it a try without the medication and I think that if I was promised there would be NO withdrawal, I'd give it a shot. However, I know darn well that there cannot be any promise of no withdrawal, I've heard it is absolutely horrendous! That is why I'm so scared, I have a job and need to drive but people say you are so incredibly incapacitated for up to two months with terrifying withdrawals.
Has anyone had a positive experience going off the meds?? I've heard you can take prozac during withdrawals but then would you have to withdraw off that too?
With all the s$%$^ of withdrawals, I wish I had never started taking these drugs. I've been on them for at least five years. But I know at the time, it was soooooooo necessary.
Any advice?
Thanks!
Jen