Debbi, I understand what you're going through because my situation is very similar. When I met my wife I was working. I've been on disability for quite a few years now. My wife has been amazingly supportive and she works so hard. I have always felt guilty that money is always so tight. I have a college degree and am a licensed teacher, but am unable to work. My disorder has reached new heights lately and it is beginning to take a huge toll on my wife. She starting crying tonight and I told her that I never wanted to put her through this. I fear that I may be hurting the most precious thing in my life.
I'm not sure I'm one to give advice, but I do so feel your pain. All I can say is be completely open and honest about everything you're feeling. With your husband and your child. Don't be ashamed of any of the feelings you have. I think we both need to go for family counselling. Also, as hard as this may be, do NOT feel guilty for what you're going through and what you're putting your family through. This is hard enough to cope with without having feelings of guilt. Talking to your husband, expressing all of your fears and concerns, can be so therapeutic. When you feel like you need to cry, try to verbalize to your husband what you're feeling. Communication is essential in any relationship. It's even more essential when you're going through this. Good luck and if you ever need to talk, please drop me a line. :)
