Oy! I can say a few things about not going well. A couple of weeks ago I lost my beloved 20 year old cat. Two days ago, my son calls in the middle of the night, he has to evac the fires. Business has been in the toilet because it is so smokey and ashey outside no one wants to leave wherever they have a window to close. The animals I have been doing are gratis, volunteer washing smoked up pets.
To say I want a cig is an understatement. I've laid off the gum in exchange for sugar free, but my chomping hasn't stopped so I've broken TWO MORE teeth, with not a cent to fix them.
I still have not smoked but I am so angry and so resentful. It has become the whole world's fault that I can't have a cigarette. I blame EVERYONE! Everytime the TV has one of the asinine stop smoking public service spots, I want to throw something at the screen.
As you might imagine, years of smoking has left my lungs not what they were and the smoke in the air bothers me a lot. I try to stay inside as much as possible. If I smoked now, I'd probably be laid out. It doesn't change things a bit except that I still have not smoked.
I feel between a rock and a hard place. When I smoked, I coughed and choked so much that people would say if they coughed like that when smoking, they would surely quit. Now they say if they were that angry and resentful, they would surely start!
I still have not smoked. It is possible to quit smoking even when you don't want to. I am a non-smoker. Believe it or not, I consider myself a non-smoker. I can't even be around cigarette smoke anymore. It has nothing to do with the urge which is probably going to be with me for the rest of my life.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/27/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 271
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,130
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2,710.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 35 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 33 [B]Seconds:[/B] 34