Im sorry you are feeling this way, but I can totally relate..I thought I was the only one who got so anxious when it came time to do something that was planned...I dont know if I can really give you any advice, as I struggle with the same feelings! If something is coming up that I have to go to, what I do is in my mind, I leave myself a way out, but try not to use it when the time comes..I say to myself, I can always cancel, I can say I am not feeling well, etc..Sometimes I do this up until the time to leave comes, and then I just try to up and go without thinking about it...The thinking and playing it over in my mind before it even happens is what kills me..Sometimes I wish I could be like "normal" people..Just make plans and when the day comes, go do it!