I've been reading all the posts here this morning, and it looks like a lot of people have been suffering what I have been in the last few days. Must be a weird moon cycle or something.
I wanted to share some positive in the craving department, though. Last night, I had one of the worst craves I have ever dealt with in a quit. I actually went to a friend who I knew had a pack of cigarettes. But she talked me out of it. In fact, she was kind of mean about it and I broke down crying. But I didn't smoke. I couldn't stay there though. I went back home, plopped my butt on the porch and didn't move for a good 4 hours. Had to make sure I stayed. Called my Dad, who beat this in one shot 20 years ago at 3 packs a day (hate him for that willpower sometimes), and he talked me through it some more.
I had a plan, you see. I was going to smoke now, because I've gained 10 pounds in 3 weeks, my mother told me I haven't sounded like myself for a few weeks, my friends told me I was being aloof, because my brother was dealing with two of his guys seriously injured in Iraq, because I was stressed about family health problems, and because I just plain wanted one. I was going to wait to quit again when I had health insurance and could get on Wellbutrin - figured it would help with the mood issues, the weight, and the smoking.
But for as bad as I wanted one, when I woke up this morning, I was so happy I didn't give in to it. I made this decision to quit in my right mind with GOOD reasons. I'm not going to go back in the middle of a crave messing with my head. So that's my affirmation. And I figure if I made it through that, feeling like an alcoholic who wants one last drink, I can make it through anything else the Nicodemon wants to throw at me. I am only more determined to see this through - and I hope that today sees everyone else feeling at least improved. :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/29/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 24
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 600
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $162.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 13 [B]Seconds:[/B] 18
