I am not able to fall asleep without feling a rush of adrenaline like panic settle over me. As a result of this, I have developed chronic insomnia that has pushed me to the point of exaustion. I am ready to commit myslef to a mental ward or something. I take Ativan as needed but think I may have a dependence to it even though I have only taken it a couple months. I take Klonapin if I need it to help me sleep. I tried Ristoril but do not like it. I also take LExapro, which may be beginning to help with the anxiety, but not the insomnia. I take Toprol Xl, because when I first began having anxiety, I had a VERY high heart rate all the time. This all began with a serious surgery. I worry all the time that I am going to die or dying. I cry alot. I am seeing a psych, but I don;t know if he is helping, as I have only seeen him 3 times. I don't know how much more I can take. Just when I think I have the anxiety under control, I try to nap or sleep and the rush is there and I cannot sleep, and end up exhausted. I had spinal surgery, and the outcome was good for now but the future is uncertain and that is at the bottom of this. I feel like I will never be the same. I pray that God will help me but still I suffer. Does ANYONE out there sound like this? Is there any hope for me or is my life going to ruined by this? I feel like I need mush more intensive help than I am getting. I want SO MUCH to sleep thru the night without drugs again and feel like it will NEVER HAPPEN. I am trying to wean off of the Ativan, as I am wondering how much it plays into my insomnia/panic. I have rarely taken ore than 2mg. a day...usually .05-1 but still feel I need to wean off of it. That is what the Klonapin is for butthen I will have to wean off of it. I wish SO MUCH that I would nothave agreed to either of those drugs but I had to do something for the anxiety and insomnia. Someone please respond.
