I can see that everyone is just clamouring to answer your questions to this one. Well, now I will ask you some stupid questions; have you ever done it in real life? Were you sexually abused as a child? Do these thoughts repulse you? I guess that is the problem, right? If you could stop the thoughts you would? I have never had such thoughts, however, I know that my friends thought that I did because I had fear of blushing, and they thought I was blushing for that very reason, around the opposite sex mostly, but sometimes around the same sex also, like fear of all people; but others have thought it was obsessions of a sexual nature. But actually I didn't have that. I just seemed more afraid of men through my life. Perhaps because I grew up with an alcoholic father. But I wonder if I do have obsessive thoughts of falling in love with no control over my passions. And perhaps these lead to blushing. I would like to know what your doctor told you about your symptoms, because I would like to know if my symptoms are similar in nature to yours, only different in content. Sorry, I did not have a similar experience exactly, but I admire your guts for revealing your thoughts. I have other weird compulsive thoughts though, such as wishing I could be a prophetess or something, or do something special with my life. Maybe it's because I feel like I haven't done enough or found out what I was meant to be or to do. Then imagination takes over and I go into dream land. I just wish I could use that creativity in a healthy way and make money out of it somehow, like write a book or something.
