Okay, this has been a problem of mine for years and because of the total fright and humiliation I have done nothing to get help with it. But now, I am so tired of it, I have to do something, I need some advice. When I was about 15, I was talking to a friend about my being sexually abused when I was younger. She responded that since I was sexually abused that I would end up doing the same to my own children or someone elses. Well we all know this isn't true, since most people that have been abused do not do it to others in the future. So, couldn't I just tell my anxiety that? NO!! When I am dealing with a lot of anxiety I can literally picture myself abusing children, hurting children, mine or others, which just causes even more anxiety trying to stop the thoughts. The catch is they only happen when I am dealing with anxiety. So, here is my question. Am I just dealing with meaningless, but frightful thoughts because of my anxiety, or am a Class A, #1 Fruitcake that needs to be put in the loony bin for the safety of all mankind? Okay, any help would be so greatly appreciated. Has anyone else ever had these kind of horrible thoughts? What can I do? Thank you.
