Jaide
I know what you mean about enjoying success. I have been going through a setback the last few months. I recently started taking Zoloft along with Xanax and am feeling so much better. I have started venturing back to places where I was having attacks, but I don't have my full confidence back yet. I feel good about doing these things, but my spontanaity (sp?)is not there yet. Everything I do, I have to think about. It's like ok, I am going to the store, I hope I don't have an attack. I haven't had one yet, but the anticipatory anxiety is there. I know eventually I will be able to do these things again without thinking about it, but it is a slow process.
I also agree with keeping a journal. I have been doing this, and although sometimes I feel like I had a rough week, when I look back at my entries, I realize it was not really that bad.
There is a saying from a program called Recovery, "try and fail, try and fail, success will come." I always try to remember this. :)