Hi Susanne thankyou for reading my post. Yes i see my doctor and i go to a therapist too.I have been told i have panic disorder and agoraphobia and depression.Over the years i have try differnt doctors and therapist ive tryed cbt but i couldnt afford to keep going and i had problems understanding it. I have done emdr and it was going okay but then again i couldnt afford to keep going.I have taken prozac,imprimine,and now i take paxil and clonzapam everyday. Im only able to see my therapist every 3 months and i just started seeing him in Dec/03.I think the program that is here is great it just not having to face my fears for so long i dont know where to begin i have read chapter one over and over. But i have to be really truthful with you i give up on things very easlly thats why i have had this for almost 22 yrs now. But i have to change cause my marriage is hanging on by a strig and its going to break one of theses days and truthfully i dont know if i can go on if it ends.Im tired 24/7 i have no energy i sleep all the time to clean my house is a chore i have real bad self esteem,since my husband had a affair in 03 i seem to have no trust, no hope, when i look in the mirror everyday all i can see in failure and tears. I know i was the one to cause my marriage to become the way it is because of my independence my anger, frustration, i have made everyone around me unhappy and i know i cant change the past but i sure want to change the future. I dont know if you can help me but i have to try this time i cant give up nomore i want to be better in the worst way so i hope you can help im so scared right now i dont have anywhere else to to turn. thanks again.......plzhelpme
