Kaiti: What a day you had! You know, it's your sense of humor and honor that gets you through. I can see that by reading your posts. I'm glad you wrote it all out -- it did make me feel better, too. I had a day like that recently -- absolutely everyone in my reach, family, co-workers, friends, strangers, didn't matter who -- they all really pi**ed me off! Even my poor blind dog irritated me. I was so taken by surprise -- where the hell did THIS come from?? While I had no conscious smoking thoughts, it's obvious that my quit had made me especially "raw" that day. My solution? Avoid everyone as much as possible, then, like you, bathtub, hot water, bubbles and lots of candles. Tomorrow is indeed a new day. Thanks for sharing your story. You sound blessed to have a family who understands (or at least is trying to understand.) You're doing great -- keep it going! And keep posting -- you're such an inspiration. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 66 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,662 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $528 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 8 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 9 [B]Seconds:[/B] 46

I sounds like you had a very demanding day. You did the right thing by taking some well deserved me time. Calgone take me away [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/12/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 31 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 943 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $201.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0

Dunedad, It's a deal....Let's get to January 7th, that will be two months, and then we will make our next plan after that. We can do this. I'm so glad to so many supporting me...but you, My quit brother, it's wonderful to know your out there going through the same things, some great days and some not so great ones...but together supporting each other, we are so much stronger, and so not alone!! Kaiti!!!! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/7/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 41 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 909 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $225.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 29 [B]Seconds:[/B] 58

Thanks everyone, dunedad, windy...everyone. I think this may be more than a one day thing. I'm re-evaluating stressors and Holiday activities...and family and how I'm reacting to all of it and how it's affecting my mood. I was teary last night and just an overall sadness. I have quite a few things going on (nothing life threatening or tragic) and need to come up with a better way of handling things with my emotions. This is all part of the process. I'm reading through some of the "dealing with stressors" and "blah mood" posts to help me understand, and give me better ideas. It's funny, I'm happy one minute...and teary the next...my poor hubby can't keep up. One minute I'm smiling and happy, the next, I'm sad and teary. I know this will pass. But when this happens, the voices in the head get a chance to work their magic (your not strong enough to handle this without a cig....if you have a cig, it will calm you down and you won't feel like this....you wouldn't feel like this if you hadn't quit smoking....you have gone 37 days without smoking, you can have just one to get you through....and last but not least..this is my favorite... Just smoke and make them all mad like you, if you have to suffer...why can't they). I made it through the voices last night and did not succumb, and I am currently 38 days not smoking (amazing!!), and going for 40. My hell week wasn't that bad...maybe I have saved it for week 6!! Thanks for listening, I know I'm not alone in this. [IMG]http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q185/kaitilina/2angels.jpg[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/7/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 38 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 844 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $209 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52

Monica, I told Shevie earlier today that when I'm having a moment, it's funny because I usually will post once I've dealt with it. I don't want to bring everyone down, and after everything you have been through, I definately didn't want to dump my very large bucket on you...although I know I can if I have to. Your really special Monica and have been just through so much.....I have the greatest respect and will let you know if I never need help. (((((((hugs))))))))) [IMG]http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q185/kaitilina/2angels.jpg[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/7/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 36 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 805 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $198 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 26 [B]Seconds:[/B] 32

Here I am...little miss positive, always smiling, always perky and ready to lend a helping hand and I love everyone!..........Yesterday I was possessed and made the exorcist look like Barney... The mood was terrible all day. I wanted to cry because all I wanted was to order my lunch and everyone was taking to long to place their orders with me....AARRRGGHHH. Luckily, I was at work and had to behave myself. Couldn't scream at anyone...couldn't hit anyone and couldn't torture anyone...so I just quietly stewed at my desk (cheermom and shevie trying to help me through..) I just wanted to get home and take a long hot bath and try and relax. Left work and this is where the possession took place, the following events are fact....please do not try this at home..... Went to my son's basketball game, then picked up the daughter from volleyball practice, than ran to the grocery store to pick her up something she needed for today. Arrived at home, folded three loads of laundry, threw warm-ups and sports uniforms in the wash that were needed for today (wednesday), helped son with his homework...searched for a missing basketball shoe..all gone...poof...now I will need to purchase new basketball shoes for my son before Thursday's game. Then daughter informs me she left her one and only (favorite) jean skirt at her Aunt's house.....AARRRGGG....back to the store to purchase a skirt because today she had to dress up because she has a game tonight.....that was it....I LOST IT!!!!!! My head spun on my neck a complete 360 degree's and the sky's turned dark. All I wanted was my bath.....and I wanted people to be responsible for their stuff...I can't be responsible for everything...I don't wear the dang jean skirts and basketball shoes....NOT MY TURN TO KEEP TRACK OF THEM. After ranting and raving at both kid's and the husband for not having a crystal ball and foreseeing all of this happening, I finished up all my chores and made sure the kid's were all set with their stuff...I gathered every flipping candle I could locate in the house, lit them all and dove head first into my bath tub. I'm pretty sure there was a "sizzle" sound and smoke wafted everywhere. I stayed there....quietly.....watching the candles flicker, listening to the bubbles pop....and going back

Everyone, Thanks so much for your words of encouragment. We all need as much encouragement as we can get. Faith, I felt the same way....I wasn't craving a cig...just couldn't shake the mood. Just a reaffirmation that we take it one day at a time. Every morning I wake up, I'm happy I'm smoke free and ready to take on any demons...baby steps everyone....baby steps... Kaiti [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/7/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 36 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 804 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $198 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 21 [B]Seconds:[/B] 55

Imallclear, There are so many realizations during our quits. One of mine is that Life definately goes marching on during our quits.... But isn't that the point of our quitting smoking....LIFE. To live life to the fullest without the addiction...all the GOOD, the bad...the GOOD...the ugly and the GREAT. Your doing great immaclear....hold my hand, we are going through this together, one day at a time....one bad mood at a time...and don't feel bad about feeling better after reading about my bad day...I was hoping to make someone smile. [IMG]http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q185/kaitilina/Sun.gif[/IMG] Kaiti [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/7/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 36 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 801 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $198 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 4 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52

Sorry you had such a bad day. Hate to admit that reading it made me feel better b/c we can't avoid those types of days sometimes. Especially I was glad to see that you are better today. It helps to remember that the next time I get sucked into a disasterous day - that tomorrow is another day and there doesn't have to be any carry over. As I'm thinking in terms of Days, I'm happy for you that you didn't succumb to any craves while in the thick of it. Because sometimes tomorrow can be far away. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/19/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 24 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 244 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $120 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26

Well Kait my shoulders are wide enough to lend an ear and to help you out in anyway I can... go ahead and dump on me sweetie! Just so good to know that you are doing better :) ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))) [IMG]http://i123.photobucket.com/albums/o304/Monica58/drawinghappyface.gif[/IMG] Monica58 [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/31/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 44 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 885 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $396 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 30