Oh My God I think about the same thing ... That women sticks in my head also... That's not even funny...My sister had the same thoughts you have had (about molesting her daughter Kayla or touching her in a funny way). She never did but she also had the same thoughts.... I think my father molested her (my sister that is). But she blocked it out! I on the other hand was too young and don't really remember much about my father aside from what I was told and how much of a drug user he was and an alcoholic. I know that these thoughts are not normal and there not healthy and I talk to everyone about them friends family you guys and it helps me to understand them and get it out and off my chest and take a step back and analyze them and ask my self why am I thinking about this and what can I do to stop thinking about these thoughts. It' doesn't really help much saying this right now or talking about it with others at least that€™s how I but I think it does I don't know... I want an answer to why I have these thoughts but every answer I get I feel as though it's not the right one or it's something else. Do you know what I mean? It's like I'm a puzzle trying to figure them out and I can't and no matter what everyone tells me I still doubt there suggestions and answers and there is no real answer but I think that there is and I just have to let my self believe it. It€™s so hard to understand things about your self. I just wish I was a puzzle and I could figure this whole thing out. My sister once told me that they will come and go and one day you€™ll be sitting there and they will pop back in you head out of no where and it did happen exactly like that€¦ She was on target, I try telling my self it€™s because of stress money responsibility being young not having a job being worried about everything else and knowing that I am the one thing that protects my children from harm and anything else€¦ But it doesn€™t make since to me€¦ Is there really a thing called misdirected anger and is this it might be? Or am I really a fruit loop€¦ And would I ever do such a bad thing would I ever just lose it and kill them and how far would I go until I stopped? It€™s these questions that bother me and not having an answer to them€¦ I just started to believe that I know why I get chest pains and wh

Melinda, I know how you feel. I was scared to death that I was going to go crazy and hurt my kids. I thought constantly about that woman that drowned her 5 kids. I never had the thought to do it myself, but I was so scared I would go crazy like her, because I felt crazy so much of the time with the panic and do something awful like that. But that's the way the panic works, you dwell on your worse fears. I was molested as a child and somewhere a long time ago I read that people who were molested will grow up to molest. So I became scared to death that I would all of a sudden start to molest my children. Even though my oldest son is 14 and I never done anything like that before. But the panic always makes your mind dwell on the things that scare you the most. I'm not trying to be a know it all , but I also think forgiving your sister will make feel so much better.

HI, Okay I€™m NOT a doctor but I think I pretty much got my self figured out when it comes to being sick and not having a panic attack. One is I think it€™s because your body is subconsciously focused on something else, second your worrying about why your sick and trying hard to feel better. Like babying your self taking hot showers relaxing and your body and mind doesn€™t have the energy to fight and flight€¦.. What€™s funny with me is I can go to one extreme to the next, what I mean is one day I could be worrying about having a heart attack, and then the next I€™m worrying about the awful thoughts I have€¦.about hurting my kids or killing my self or others around me. But just to clear my own mind and everyone else who reads this I was told that it€™s a good thing that I worry that€™s what keep my in check that€™s what makes me even more sane because I know that there not normal thoughts or natural for that matter€¦.. And I talk about them because they bother the hell out of me and I don't like them.... I just worry worry worry about everything... I think I also figured out why I think about hurting my children it's because I feel like I'm not good enough and they need me for everything and I would kill anyone who ever hurt them and after my son almost drowned last year I worry about it even more. Hey has anyone seen that commercial on MTV? Where the little girl is walking over to the pool and then that voice pops in and says just tell her parents you were off getting high? That' brought back a lot of feelings and I cried and held my son for like an hour he must think I'm crazy being four wondering why mommy€™s crying...ha-ha And I can't let it go... I through it in my sisters face when ever we get into a fight I can't forgive her she almost killed my son F**** B**** I think it's her I want to hurt but in some weird sort of way I think about the kids it's odd....and I don't understand it at all but I try to work with my self to and talk to everyone about it I don't internalize anything that's when you start to lose it and it' builds up inside you like ball of fire.... If any of you even make it this far I would be surprised but at least I got it all out....

ah, i've got the cold now, and don't feel panicky at all, actually feel quite good!?!?! Princess2, best thing to do is read through some of the posts to see what other people are experiencing, if you have something different, then start a new post to get other people views on it, goodluck!!

hi there i have had my anxiety for 2 year and im just understanding to deal with it if eneyone can help me a bit more i will be thank for .

funny you should say that, as I had a panic free week last week when I was full of a cold.

just wondering, when you are sick, eg, flu, heavy cold, food poisoning..etc, does your panic attacks seem to disappear?