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I awoke the other day feeling what I will call �essed�. Obsessed, possessed, depressed. I have not been able to shake that feeling for several days, and since I don�t want to smoke but am feeling so very �essed�, I thought it was time I posted. I feel a humbug though, because nothing is going on in my life that would remotely affect me, such as Monica�s dad, or any really big event. But I can�t seem to get the obsessed thoughts out of my brain. Oh, not constant, but so often it seems like constant. I turn it over to God, and then I take it back. I think NOPE and then, maybe�. I am not liking who I am or how I am acting and I certainly don�t like my lack of patience. I am normally fairly impatient anyway, but now it�s ridiculous in the extreme. Don�t make me wait for 30 seconds for ANYTHING or I�m off on a tirade. Don�t even think of changing what we had planned to do or I�m off on a tirade. I was not this touchy in the beginning, why now? What has changed? I am also not happy, no, more like I am furious at the weight gain. Maybe that�s what�s changed? I feel uncomfortable and bloated and don�t fit in most of my clothes. Everything I own is horribly uncomfortable. I have gained 20 lbs in 50 some days, and I can�t afford to do 20 lbs every 50 days! I don�t WANT to buy new and bigger clothes! I am now not eating so much candy (though I do confess to eating 2, not 1, large boxes of Milkduds last night�) but then I feel like something�s missing (like my left arm! I read that post, I know I know, but it doesn�t help) and searching for something else to put in my mouth. And when is all the extra energy going to show up? All I do is sit and stare at the TV. I don�t want to do anything or go anywhere or be with anyone. I feel so depressed I don�t know what to do. I do have an appointment with the doctor to discuss this, but not till next week, so I am not ignoring the symptoms, but I just don�t know if I can go on like this for much longer. So sorry to be such a downer; I don�t much share my feelings so this is very new to me and I am feeling so very fragile, which is also new for me. Denise [IMG]http://i131.photobucket.com/albums/p300/DeeKaySss/feelingstuck.jpg[/IMG] [size=1]the title to this JPG is called "feeling stu

Hi all, The Horse is with me, the Lady is with me, Kaitilina, Danielle, & Imallclear (LOL @ 'Too Late"), are also with me. I had so many IM windows open I had a hard time finding which one was my turn! I am now off my pity pot and have promised multiple folks here that I will indeed do some sort of a reward today. I don't know what but I'll have to do it quick, because I have to be to work in an hour. I thank all of you for your heart, your sharing, and your support. I would not have made it thus far (and beyond) without all of you. Denise [IMG]http://i131.photobucket.com/albums/p300/DeeKaySss/Bigeyeswingparrot.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/16/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 52 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,580 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $390 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 34 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26

Parrott Lady - I think you might be travelling out of Limboland already! You've already inspired me! (Let's get multicoloured track pant though anyway....just for fun!) Windy [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/11/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 89 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,793 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $445 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 8 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31

Oh My Goodness!! - You have stolen my thoughts from my brain!! I'm afraid Parrott that you have now joined me in Limboland....It is the place where chubby people go after the "OH MY GAWD.....I'M GOING TO DIE" phase and after the "I AM AN INVINCIBLE SUPERHERO" phase....but well before you hit the "I AM CALM, HAPPY AND INSPIRING" phase. So Ms Parrott Lady, I would like to officially invite you to Limbo land. Grab a comfy lazy boy chair and put on your track pants and fuzzy slippers (We might as well be comfortable while we wait to be inspiring plus you can't feel your waistline expand as easily in track pants) At the beginning of our quits we were so focussed on survival that we didn't have the energy to think about our weight or what exactly we wanted to do when we actually quit....Well..we are here now! Sooooooooooo...Denise - What shall we do with our new lives? I'm afraid that Weight Watchers is on my New Year's agenda - 5 lbs a month (Do you care to join me?) Shall we take short walks and have a good chat? Come to the gym with me in the morning - It's much easier to exercise before your brain starts working! I have to admit that I was a little relieved to hear that I wasn't the only one who struggled abit after my quit progressed although I am so sorry that this time is so difficult for you. Know that you are not alone...and, most certainly, talk to your Doctor if those feelings just won't go away. Then.......please come with me...and let's find our way out of Limboland. I'm sure there are two gorgeous, slim, happy and extremely healthy young woman just waiting inside us ready to explore our new lives! Take care....Denise...I'll be thinking of you. Windy [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/11/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 87 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,758 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $435 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 8 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 13 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26

Bravo, Denise! :) nmc [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/25/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 104 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,048 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $520 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 28 [B]Seconds:[/B] 30

You rock, Parrotlady!!!! You're working it through the rough times because they WILL get better. You give lots of good advice and support, so yeah, we'll all be happy to support you. God Bless, Jan [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] -23 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0

You're ace, Denise - you'll be back to normal before you know it. Hang on in there, honey! Deli [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 128 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,932 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �384 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 10 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 45 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7

I like the way you talk, uh huh. :) I had to go back and make sure I hadn't started this post! Sounds exactly like I have felt a few times! Look at you, now...within a day you went from obssESSED, deprESSED, opprESSED, etc.... to blESSED! Good job! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 91 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,583 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $728 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 9 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 18 [B]Seconds:[/B] 13