Thanks Pond, I'm so glad I read your story, you're an inspiration!
Trac, I thought I was the only one afraid to feel anything until a few weeks ago! It's terrible. I'm still quite afraid but I do have good moments where I can feel sad or happy, angry or even depressed! Laughter was and still is quite hard for me. Even though I laugh a lot, I'm still not fully enjoying it if that makes sense. But I do have moments where I can 'let go' and feel for the sake of feeling alone. I've still got a way to go yet, but I can tell I'm starting to get stronger in the emotions department. A lot of my getting emotions back I owe to music. I started by just listening to various pieces by various artists and didn't feel a thing. But I kept at it and the music won me back again in the end. Now I'm not afraid to feel in regards to music. Try starting to feel for something. Could be anything, music, pet, tv show anything. Then you can start to apply it to other things. This is what I've done anyhow.
Good luck, I know how it feels. (bad choice of words maybe!) Anytime you wanna talk, Trac, I'll listen. :)
