I thought I had PTSD and my psychologist said I have panic disorder with agoraphobia, I have no problems being outside or anything like that, the agoraphobia pertains to me being afraid that I will hurt myself or be hurt while being out. So I understand where you are coming from. And a lot of people with these kinds of problems self medicate with alcohol, I drink very rarely now but I used to drink every weekend to the point where I had vague memories, they would come in kind of flashes the next day so I understand that part as well. Are you seeing a therapist and why do you have ptsd, if you don€™t mind me asking.