well guys,
I smoked a few cigs. First, my roommate broke my key off in my transmission and my car was down for 2 days. Then, my flipping wallet got stolen. Then the identity theft began. I had to make a million phone calls. I am not responsible for the charges, but it is worrisome. They have my address, social security number etc. Most recently, the theives opened a NEW account in my name. They charged two rental cars and STOLE them. Now there is a fraud alert attached to my name at all the credit reporting bureaus.Hopefully, this will take care of it. Then, I was helping my daughter pack all week end. She just graduated from college with her dance performance degree and decided to move to NY to try and make it as a professional dancer. She has been planning this for months. I am so proud of her for pursuing her dream; for her bravery to move to a new city on her own. We had a going away party Sat. I smoked a cig at her party (alcohol, blah, blah). The next day I called in work and helped her reduce everything she owns into 2 fifty pound suitcases, a carry on, and a back pack. She started crying about 10 pm, (which I expected). We had our very teary goodbyes at the airport. I watched her all the way through security until she was out of my sight. That is when I smoked again. The last 2 weeks have just been allll too much for me, I guess. I was so proud that I made it through the stolen wallet without smoking. She is an intelligent girl. She has a great place to stay with a good friend and auditions already scheduled. I just fear for her safety in the big city. I miss her so much my heart aches. I see her sweet face in my mind. I am going to take two days off my meter, forget about it and move on. I am a non smoker, *%^$#! Gosh, it can sneak up on you so quickly. I will say that I was not cocky about my quit, but i definitely was feeling much more confident that I would not smoke. This is the furthest I have ever come in this jouney. I am not about to go back. I have not had that many things go wrong in my life, nor that much stress in years. I failed at that critical moment to empower myself with those all important coping skills. I am still shakey, disappointed in myself, and, of course, cravings. Please, just send a few positive thoughts my way.
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