Hi, David.
First of all, I am no expert, only someone who has suffered with panic disorder all my life. I have picked up lots of tips and am being treated at this time with Xanax, Prozac, and I take Trazadone at night for sleep, nerve pain and it's a SSRI. I have Chronic Pain Syndrome, and these meds help me to fight the effects of very strong pain killers. I also just quit smoking, so that is another stressor. Actually, my panic was very much under control until I quit the smokes.
Pot is available by prescription to a certain group of sufferers, and of what I'm not sure. I know that pain is one of them..however, living in a state that has outlawed pot, I still would not be able to get it legally. If I want pot, I have to buy it illegally.
You may, however, live in a state that has made it legal by prescription. Check with your physician on this matter. I do know what you mean about sleep !!
On the matter of Celexa, I was on that drug for a very short time, as I got bad side effects from it and had to stop within a week or two.
I do know that you cannot just go off, or stop taking any anti-depressant. You must be taken off of it, either in patient..or out patient. This is another matter for you and your doctor to discuss. None of us like medicine..I hate it so much..but alas, I would not be able to stand to live and breath without my pain meds and all the anti=depressants. Other than those, I take a hormone. If it wasn't for my spine, I would take one pill, and one pill only.
It is always something, however, that we must attend to in this life. You have been exposed to some very scarey scenarios in your life, and I think it is your body's reaction to that which causes you to have panic disorder.
Have you tried Cognitive Behavior Therapy? I do not know if it would apply to your case, your doctor would know. This has heled many.
I myself, did something called desensitizing. It worked very well for my driving phobia. I got that from a horrible car accident. A drunk driver on drugs carelessly caused irreparable damage to my spine and the driving phobia.
I cannot however, blame the panic disorder on him..I inherited that from my mother.
Whatever you decide to do, please do it under doctors care. We shouldn't do these things ourselves..i