Hi Phillip -
I read and reread your post, and it sounds and feels like there is fear all over the place here. And I have a question for you: Are you making it up or is it true? What I mean is, what if the doc is correct, and what you are experiencing IS panic?
I know panic well and I believe that at least part of what you are experiencing is panic. And worrying and beating yourself up is not going to calm panic. For many years panic was my best friend, and I know her well. Quiet down the energy. Nothing is going to happen or come up that you can't handle, right? Well, has it ever? Remind yourself who you are, Phillip.
Gentle down the energy. Be your best friend right now (that means unconditional love!) and some compassion for YOU would be really good right now, ya think?
:) One day at a time. One step at a time.
Love and Blessings-
Healer
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