Welcome Laci!
I am sorry to hear how you are feeling. It is totally understandable that you feel fed up. Long term depression can feel hopeless. I am glad you are trying this program. Have you worked on Cognitive Behaviour Therapy in the past? You may want the help of a counsellor as you are working on the program. The more supports and informational resources you can gather, the more likely you will have success!
Keep us posted on how you are doing and be sure to ask any questions you may have.
Ashley, Health Educator