It sounds like you've had to experience several overwhelming events in recent years. You've found a great site to help you restore hope and find help with ways to change your perspective on life.
As Jynx mentioned, feel free to share your thoughts & feelings.
im in the uk, suffered with GAPD since close family brevement in 2002. lost job due to sick leave, no one will employ me now. i have no hope or good feelings about myself and im hoping this program will help