Actually, I'm not gonna let myself go down with that, or you for that matter. I just read your thread, and I feel like I have to tell you that ADs can help. When I was diagnosed 4 years ago, I was convinced nothing could help me. I tried a first AD, and it failed me. Not only failed me, made me 5x worse. But (I was lucky) the 2nd one actually did work.
When I'm feeling like this, I tend to forget that. But one of the reasons I decided to wean off was because i felt I was Ok enough. I had some downs, even at some point I thought the ADs had 'pooped out', so I tried to wean off then, went to 37.5 and really saw the symptoms coming back. So I upped them back to my original 150mg. My mood improved again.
In some cases, I do believe meds are the answer. In my case, I realize it must be more clinical than situational, and all that has worked for me, were the ADs. Maybe you just don't have the right combination, don't give up. There are too many success stories, we see all the negative stories online, because happy people don't usually waste their time browsing depression boards. Make sense? I know I didn't touch a depression board or anything remotely close while I was feeling good, except for my 'pooping out' scare. I hope it makes some sense.