I haven't really talked to anyone about what's going on. I don't understand it myself. I feel sad, worthless, tired. I wake up after a couple of hours sleep, then fret for the rest of the night. I frequently think about death.
At the same time, if I consider the details of my life on at a time, I can see that I'm lucky - good job, good family, friends who care. But as soon as I stop concentrating on the details, I feel like crap again. How can I feel terrible about things I know are good?
I am glad you found us. Work through the program and remember to post often. We are here to support you. The program is proven to help so stick with it and if you have any questions be sure to ask.
Have you ever talked to a counselor about what you are going through? Be sure to talk about it, if you can`t with loved ones post here often. Many member here will unmderstand what you are going through. Many members have come here just like you and are now amazed by how well they are doing. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and we are here to help you find it.
I've been 'down' for about two years, getting progressively worse as time goes on. My Doctor started me on Celexa a month ago. I just took the Goldberg test on this site, scoring a 65 - severe depression.
My wife knows I'm on Celexa, but doesn't really get how bad I feel, and to be fair I haven't really expressed it. I don't know if friends and coworkers have noticed anything. I'm pretty good at acting normal.