I am a 30 year old single mom of one 12 year old boy. I have a very patient, kind and caring boyfriend of almost 3 years. I have been depressed before when I was 20 but through councelling, I felt that I got through to the other end unscathed. I have been through alot of life experiences that made me who I am today but for about 6-8 months I have slowly been on a downward slope into anxiety and depression. I realized that I needed some help when I didn't want to go to the grocery store because I might see someone I know, which is normally not my personality... I am very outgoing, positive and happy when I am baseline. So my manager directed me to this website.
I haven't been able to narrow anything down yet but my anxiety and depression comes and goes, some days I am perfectly fine while other days I just want to stay in bed all day... when I force myself to go to work, I have no motivation or desire to even be there. I have lost enjoyment in things that I normally would have enjoyed... but like I said, other days I am A-OK.
My son is growing up quickly and our relationship has been strained due to me working so much and when I wasn't working, I felt like all I was doing was disciplining him for things he was doing. I read a book called ScreamFree Parenting and implemented it at home which has been working wonders for our relationship. I am patching up my relationship with my boyfriend because that too was suffering from my depression. I have friends who just want to drink every weekend and I am not interested. And my financial situation is strained due to letting go my part time job to save my relationships with my son, boyfriend and friends. Now in the fall I have been accepted to a course that I can't afford on my own but I don't make enough to get a bank loan and too much to get a student loan so I am stressing out about that...
I know having been through this before, that everything is going to work out but when I am in a depressed state, I don't want to do anything or go anywhere and I fear that I will lose my relationships, my job and my reputation.
Anyway, that is me. I hope that going through the sessions will help me change my thought processes and get better.