41 year old female, mother of 3.......living with my boyfriend of 6 years. I came here in hopes of finding a new way to deal with my depression. My history of "dealing" was to turn off all emotions, then nobody gets hurt :) (I don't mean I would hurt anyone or myself) Well, my boyfriend, God Bless him, has brought me out of the darkness and taught me, that no matter what comes our way in life, he is here for me. I thank God everyday for him. For obvious reasons, my "dealing" was not working out too well, it has for years worked to my advantage, no emotions, no feelings and nothing could hurt me. Life has dealt some unpleasant blows as of late, I lost my job in September, (well, I quit after not being paid for 3 weeks, had to sue for my wages, which I received a judgement, but still no $$$$) I started my own business doing what I was doing for my previous employer, they filed a lawsuit against me stating I "stole" everything from them. It's still in litigation, $10,000 later to my attorney, and still jumping thru hoops. My new business (operated for 9 months) has failed, thanks to the continious litigation and BS from my previous employer. Life sucks!!!!!! Seems there is no way out.....