Howdy All,
I've been diagnosed with DSM IV 296.34 - Severe Depression, Recurrent, With Psychotic Features. I also have been diagnosed Social Phobic, 300.23, and PTSD, 309.81.
Had a pretty rough life so far, usually don't venture outside my room (live with parents, even though I'm wayyyy to old to). Tried CBT and failed on several occaisions - trying to get help any way I can. I've spent 10% of my life in psychiatric wards - two and a half years. My counselor is trying EMDR for my PTSD - it's been working to some extent- and on IPV for my depression (instead of CBT due to it's ineffectiveness). I have been proposed as a candidate for ECT - have had to refuse assertively on several occasions (Ernest Hemmingway commited suicide after getting ECT, and I'm not as strong as Hemmingway).
I have competing bouts of uncontrolable crying and sadness to dissociation and feeling very numb (machine like is the best way to describe it). I have anxiety attacks and frequently replay a traumatic event from my childhood in my head. I am currently on disability (in US) - and unable to work (tried college and ended up in psych ward after an attempt).
I am taking 800mg of Seroquel (Quetiapine, yes, 800mg, not 80mg), 60mg of Prozac (Fluoxetine), 60mg Cymbalta, 60mg of Remeron (Mirtazipine), 3mg of Prazosin for nightmares, 30mg of Temazepam (a benzo) for sleep (ambein, chloral hydrate, and other benzo's have been ineffective.
I'm also a member of the Suicide Forum (elsewhere on the web) - they have a solid privacy policy, and no personal information is shared (against the rules) - which has been another good resource for my depression.
Hope to hear and talk with y'all.