I agree. fatigue, "outside" stress, mood, can all trigger that "demon" to return. Just half hour ago, I felt on top of the world. had a good morning, now I'm exhausted and starting to crash and feel not so good. I should be happy and feeling good because there is some hope for some positive changes that I can implement. We all need something to be happy about, but sometimes those happy things can "hit us in the face" and we still dont see it. We cant see the forest for the trees!
As a teen, I used to ride my bike for hours on end on the weekend, or sometimes just after school. It became an escape for me from reality. Ha, I remember the first time out on my bike after moving to the "new" house, been there only maybe a week. Still feeling weak from the bug, (I lost 10 - 12 lbs most of it muscle) I took off like a bat out of ****&. I turned a couple of corners and stopped dead!!!!! I was so totally lost, confused. and to top it off, I was toooo tired to trace my way back the way I came, and I had only gone 3 blocks. I stood there for a few minutes trying to figure out what to do, too embarrassed to knock on someones door and ask them how to get back home. I decided to continue on slowly as I was now tired, and try and get back home by continuing on. I did get back home, put my bike away, and went and "crashed" physically exhausted. I had ridden maybe 5 blocks, half of which was downhill, and really only one block uphill, which I walked the bike up.
I look back on that and can laugh but also realize just how sick I had been, but the laugh is needed.