good evening coj.
welcome to the site. I am sorry that you did not get the exact response you were looking for.
I was first diagnosed when I was 19 with a major depressive episode. and have been up and down since. So I finally requested a full diagnoses and I found I am bipolar. So that explains the reoccuring depressions that put me out of functioning for so long.
I can understand when you feel the need to be away from the stimulus of the office to get your your done. Depression is an illness that takes up a lot of our energy. And to feel apart and isolated is something that we all share here. Part of the program is to look at how we look at situations and see if we might judge them more positively ... for our better health.
Coj,
I am have an anxiety disorder so most of my days are filled with worry. the past 20 years one of my symptomes was a profuse sweating, and that stress sweat that stinks. So I would wash compulsively and it got to the point of using 4 different soaps a day with a good hard brush for the morning and evening showers. I was often a bright red (irritated) colour and still never clean enough ... darn odour causing bacteria.
i do know how you feel. I really know hard it is to face people and smile every morning. Worring, hiding in my corner, never knowing when someone would hurt me by saying what I felt.
Coj.
I have had to learn to come to terms with the person I am, the way my body works, and the way people understand me. I cannot change society. I cannot transplant my soul into another body. So I have had to find a bunch of friends and work though my issues.
coj.
I did not respond to your first posts because I am long winded and wordy and chat way too much ... as you get to know 'my voice' you will see that I am "a good egg" but I think that I might scare new arrivals ... like the ugly big aunt asking for hugs as everyone walks in the door at the holidays. As you read and post issues and inquiries in the other subjects you will see me pop up a little all over ...
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