alittle confused right now. Getting great support from wife ,family and friends. found good support group to meet with in person as well as this one. Met with my new pastor yesterday, who looks like he will be a great source for counseling. My church brought over this huge christmas care package of food. My doctor has given me 3 months of samples, so I don't have to worry about where my meds are coming from. my wife isn't putting any pressure on me to work, wants me to take my time. You would think I would be flourishing, and yet I feel like I am just treading water. Not really depressed, but not really good, just kind of there. Makes me feel kind of guilty when I see all the circumstances everyone else is going thru. Just don't know. Like I said very confused.