lol, wildcat, so glad to figure out what all those people with mirrors on their shoes were doing!
I realize in hindsight you are exactly right wildcat. My son did need to see me as a "real" person and he does now. I know he loves me very very much and our relationship has improved with age - all 29 of his!!!!! Despite my MDD.
However, it is quite humbling to have to have his "help" at 46 when I am looking at the time my dad and grandmother need help - and I can do that kind of thing; just not focus and concentrate and as I say get "kickstarted" to do things productive at home! Okay, I am focusing on the negative!
wildcat, I may need to get rid of all my skirts? or just stay off the pedestal? lol
it is a good thing you got knocked down! poeple keep looking up your skirt when you are up there
seriously, goofy, you said it ... it is a projection. It is a an ideal that no one can attain other than a god. It is much better for you and your family to see that you are a normal person whit a full reange of emotions.
Believe it or not, you will teach your grand-daughter to give and receive !!! the basis is sharing
Goofy,
This may be a good time to speak to your son and ask him if you're curious. You may be pleasantly surprised.
We appreciate your particiapation and enjoy having you around!
Sylvie, Bilingual Health Educator
Breanne, it so "funny" that you called me a strong woman. My son wrote something as a final project when he was graduating from high school, it is actually hanging on my wall above this computer. It says "My mom is the strongest woman I know. Anything she sets her mind on she always accomplishes". It says many more positive things about me as his mother as well. Since the depression and having to have his help, I feel like I've had a fall from grace. That he no longer sees me in that light. I don't really know how he sees me in terms of my "strength". I am just "mind reading" as session 4 discusses. I feel like I was a strong woman at that time and up until the depression knocked me off my pedestal. That is my perception. I hope I can portray that strength that I once had to my granddaughter! I will keep working on it! Sometimes I feel it there, but it is so covered up, it feels like I can't dig that deep!
Thanks for listening and for all your insight and support.
Goofy,
Congratulations! This is so exciting! What a great example you will be setting for your granddaughter, she's see a strong women continually working to improve herself. Congrats!
Brenna, Bilingual Health Educator
well, Another thing to feel good about. My son's adoption of his step-daughter will be finalized on Monday. I will officially be a grandmother. I cried off and on all day - but recognized them as they related to happiness! Not a single thought about "what if" and "my mom is missing". I am happy about the adoption but happy about my reaction as well. Knowing how I feel and why I feel seems like such a small thing, but is so hard sometimes! I got it right this time - I think.
