Hi Im Miakoda and I've been suffering for depression for a year now. I had a very rough year in 2006, which led to a 17 year breakup, the selling of my house, and 3 moves. In Jan 2007 my doc diagnosed me with severe depression. I have been taken off of work since then, and have been in a relationship for 2 years.
For a year now I have been having complete mood swings ranging from happy one moment to complete rage or sadness the next. In the past few months suicide has entered my thoughts. My depression is mixed with my love for alchol, which doesn't go good toghether, and not to mention mixing with the meds.
On Dec 21 I was hospitalized for extreme depression and suicidal. My meds were adjusted (remeron) and I was perscribed Seroquel. My Bf has always tried to support me, even though he has a codependency problem in relationships.
On Dec 31, he decided that he had had enough, and that he needed a time-out. He left. And honestly, I have no clue to whether he will be back or not. So, with all that, I feel like I am just trying to survive this "New" year. And its sooo hard.