Interesting...I see a lot of people mentioning the characteristics of depressives and although I've recognized many of those characteristics in myself for a long time, I never made the connection between those qualities and behaviours with my depression. Good insight...
More than anything right now I'm scared of the emotions that will come out as I try to get to the sources of my depression. I've been swallowing them for so long, things could get ugly if I unleash them all. Scared of an impending crash.
Been feeling a bit better for the last few days as the withdrawals from the meds wear off. Feeling like I can handle it all and that I can cope on my own without all the drama of therapy, etc.
BUT...that's the old me trying to talk myself out of dealing with this once and for all. I wouldn't have ever come here if there wasn't a reason. I know I'm not ok yet, even if I feel like I can fake it some more. Have to admit it's been nice to "fake nice" for a couple of days just to get some reprieve from the emotional hell of the last couple of weeks.
(Sigh) Seems like a long journey sometimes...But like you've said, we are amazingly strong people. If anyone can survive (and eventually thrive!), we can.
