Lost:
I felt the same way when I started. But I used the structure to keep myself going. It's all very small steps, just a little each day adds up. Get yourself a good spot to keep your papers and worksheets, maybe some nice coloured folders or a special pen, set aside time in the day for the computer, brew a cup of tea or coffee or whatever steps make it feel like a comfortable routine. No one expects your whole day to transform, but even if the rest of it goes to hell in a handbasket, you can carve out this one small piece where you start taking baby steps in the right direction. It can work, don't overthink it, just start small and follow the instructions. I wish you all the support in the world.
Ava