I'm 39, in a very unhappy marriage and have an 18 year old son. My depression and anxiety started 2 years ago. My husband left me, I lost my job, had major financial difficultes and a hysterectomy, all within 2 weeks. It was a big blow. Panic attacks started, I began drinking...and now, 2 years on, I'm pretty much housebound and shutting myself off from the world. Even though my husband returned, there is no love or support. I did work for a little bit and thought I was recovering, but have recently handed in my notice due to my fear of panic attacks. Sometimes I feel I'll never get better. I'm not on any medication other than herbal (St Johns Wort.) I just want to be the person I was.