Tazz,
I feel exactly like you do, been depressed ever since I can remember, also diagnosed myself and came to the realization that this is how it is and gotta live with it. But, then I see other people who are 'happy' and wonder, why can they be happy and I can't. I hear all the time people trying to explain to me all the benefits that I have that others don't, I hear and listen and see for a short period and then regress back to my 'old self'. I trully believe it is an attitude issue, it really is, the problem is that peple like us have a problem 'changing' our attitudes. Even when something good happens to me, I am still sad (depressed). I too am very mentally and phyiscally tired. There HAS TO BE A BETTER WAY, its a problem in our brains, it CAN be fixed. The question is how? I ran across this website, signed up, hoping it can help.