Hi Valerie!! Welcome! Glad you made it out here.
We have all been where you before. We got diagnosed, had to find the right meds, and then had to turn around and fix the mess we'd made of our lives.
I've found that I just need to be more honest with my family. Like, "I'm coming out today, but I'm really tired....I really don't feel like coming, but I want to. So I'll be there. See you soon, ok?
Love you." OR "You know what? This is a crappy evening for me to talk about this...I feel awful and depressed. Can we talk and make this decision in a few days when I feel better?"
sigh. it's super super rough. I am with ya girl.
But another thing that will help you is to go through the program they have here with all the worksheets and such. They are AMAZING!
Anytime you have question, concerns or just need to vent, pop over here and let us know. We're all here for each other...and 2 (or 45) head are better than one. :)